May 27, 2011
May 26, 2011
Oh hey there!
Well, I haven’t posted in ages. What’s been up with me? Well, I’ve been through various phases of being super good, and exercising loads, and being terrible and not. It never got too terrible though, I just had ‘days off’. My weight is still about 134, though I swear I am very slowly getting slimmer. I have to admit to getting sucked in to bad eating habits a little bit (somewhat unhealthy restricting) which of course I couldn’t maintain, so after 4 or so days I’d just eat whatever I felt like, then feel terrible and start eating less again. I know. It’s common, and it’s terrible (and it didn’t work!) But I’m going to try to erase that habit and get out of the cycle. I’m not going to eat whatever I want, but I’m not going to deprive myself. What I do eat will be good for me, and I will emphasise positivity in eating awesome stuff and exercising.
It’s tricky to do it alone. I abandoned this blog, because I felt I was no longer being faithful to its message. I started up a new blog, that was sort of obsessed with my ‘ideal body’, but I posted nothing but photos, and didn’t talk to anyone, and it was lonely and miserable and encouraged unhealthiness.
I’m not saying I had an eating disorder. I just know I haven’t been doing it right.
But I’m still dedicated to achieving my goals, to staying strong, to getting strong and fit, and healthy. I just really don’t think I can do it alone. I don’t really know what I’m doing with myself because my habits are so bad now and yeah, I’m sort of asking for help. I don’t really talk to anyone about it. So if anyone wants to talk about it… you know where to find me :)
